G.B.T's journal, Dec. 21st, 2027
Today is a great day for me. It's a beginning to my ends, and the end of my beginning. That means today I'm graduating, I'm evolving, individually for sure, most probably collectively too. I'm planning for my consciousness to break loose from all inherited limits and restrictions, which were only applicable prior to this very day. To me, the utmost importance of this day cannot be diminished. Then, I may end up feeling this day on Earth was just the same as any other day which came before, or will come after, no difference at all. Hard to figure out prior to the moment.
That's a measure of the significance of my life here on Earth. Each moment I spend breathing, loving, arguing, exploring, thinking, hating, building, destroying, kissing, killing, crying, hurting, doing, planing, celebrating, or whatever else I can do, it may bring me closer to a great day, as it may not. That said, the measure of greatness applicable to my days is probably different from yours, as to me, it can only be correlated to one vital variable: the level of personal investment I'll bring into the day, as I know I'm mostly creating my own reality, as I go.
Okay. It all sounds quite cheesy, like some total rehashed new age bullshit. And it could be just that. But not to me, not now, as this moment only feels genuine. It's like a road sign I'd pass daily without ever noticing, until this moment on this day. Or that person crossing my path forever, to which I'd never talked to, until this moment on this day. Or that book I'd never read, standing on a shelve with many others, untouched for ages, until I do decide to put my hand on it, and let it transform everything I previously took for granted. I imagine that waking up to witness what used to be unseen is a most disturbing, volatile and violent process, a fleeting moment nonetheless. Or it's nothing at all. It's whatever I make of it. It may mean I'm now able to change some posture, go from one state to the next. It may be toneless. As I get to create a version of my own reality, decide to own it, for real.
Anyway, today is super special because it's the first day I'll have NOEE's voice inside of me. I've decided I'd let her touch my consciousness, and see where it leads me. And as the first person ever doing so, I'm nervous beyond belief. Let's experiment!